Birth of a Website

Well, it's up and running!
Building a website is exciting work, and a task I've been meaning to tackle for a while. But it's also daunting. Certainly, the feelings of legitimacy come in waves—every time a new, professional-looking feature comes before your eyes—but there's fear in legitimacy, too. It brings with it questions: Do I deserve this? Am I good enough? Am I faking it? I'm told that one never stops feeling these things. The pestering idea that it was some kind of strange luck that has allowed you to do what you've done, instead of whatever was supposed to get you to this place in your life.
There's a good deal of negative self-talk that comes with art, or even any endeavor where you strive to be as "good" as possible. We doubt constantly that we are there, or even that we can be. It's a good deal of negative self-talk that does us no good. Alejandro González Iñárritu, taking the stage at the Academy Awards last night to receive his Oscar for Best Director (one of many times he was up there for "Birdman") said "...true art, true individual expression...can't be compared, can't be labeled, can't be defeat, because they exist, and our work only will be judged, as always, by time." I loved that speech. What more gracious a way to accept an award than to recognize the artistic integrity of those beside you. And he talked of "that little prick called 'ego'". Ego is what allows us to bask in the glow of a spiffy new website. But ego is what drives us to compare ourselves to others; it is what depresses us when we worry that we are not living up to our ambitions.
If we can ignore the ego and ignore the pestering questions, we can focus on making art and doing what we do in the world. Now to just figure out how to do that...
Suggestions are welcome.

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  • michael chiavario

    michael chiavario Bellingham

    When ego pesters, just give it a friendly 'hello', then continue focussing on creating art for service and the upliftment of all. This is called sublimation - replacing a cruder sentiment with a more spiritual sentiment and making it sublime.

    When ego pesters, just give it a friendly 'hello', then continue focussing on creating art for service and the upliftment of all. This is called sublimation - replacing a cruder sentiment with a more spiritual sentiment and making it sublime.

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